Fandom: Code Geass: Lelouch of the Rebellion
Spoilers: The entire series thus far, some of the drama CDs, and parts of the Stage 0 novel. I also use the gg fansubs for quotes.
Thanks to: nayami and sephyelysian for their insights and beta reading. ♥
THE GRAND FAÇADE
suzaku/lelouch: lies & hidden faces
Code Geass is a story about princes, princesses, knights, and witches. Oh, and robots on rollerskates.
The scene opens on Japan, now taken over by the Britannian Empire and renamed Area 11. Living here in secret are Lelouch and his blind, disabled sister, Nunnally, who are in truth Britannian royalty. Nunnally was injured during a mysterious attack that also killed their mother, but when Lelouch confronted their father about it he was coldly dismissed. Since then, he has harbored a deep, bitter resentment against Britannia and the emperor. The two siblings were sent to Japan as political hostages, eventually befriending Kururugi Suzaku, the son of the Prime Minister. For a while the children were at ease, but then came the invasion in which Lelouch and Nunnally were thought to have died.
Seven years later his feelings have not changed, but he is powerless to act upon them. He and Nunnally attend Ashford Academy where their true identities unknown to all but the Ashford family. Then comes the fateful encounter with C.C. and his reunion with Suzaku, in which Lelouch is given a power, the Geass, that enables him to give an "ultimate command" to anyone who looks into his left eye. With the Geass at his disposal, Lelouch now has the ability to destroy the Britannian Empire, and find out the reason behind the attack that changed everything. Hiding his identity behind a mask and the name Zero, he creates and leads the Order of the Black Knights against Britannia, though in doing so he and Suzaku become enemies.
Wikipedia has an extensive CG page for more info.
THE BLACK PRINCE
lelouch vi britannia
Lelouch is the main character, but definitely not a hero. There's nothing heroic about him – he's ruthless, calculating, and manipulative. Sure, he's brilliant, but that and everything else makes him more qualified to be a villain. That's what sucks you in after watching the first episode, it's the malicious, downright evil smile he makes after ordering a dozen men to commit suicide. Here is the power he's been starving for since he was ten.
Lelouch has two goals:
1. To discover who killed his mother and why
2. To create a world where Nunnally can be happy
And he will do anything, sacrifice anything, to realize these two desires. The lives of innocent people mean nothing to him (except of course when they do, but I'll get to that) and he'll use whatever underhanded means necessary. One of the first things he does with his new power is question his half-brother Clovis, and kill him afterwards, in part to cement his resolve. It is for the sake of his goals that he commits atrocity after atrocity, but strangely enough, it's for the same goals that he somehow holds onto his humanity ("I swear I won't change.")
Lelouch is not another Light of Death Note. He connects with people and honestly cares for his friends. He doubts himself and his intentions the most after seeing Shirley in distress when her father is killed during one of Zero's battles. When Shirley herself appears unexpectedly during a battle, he freezes up, and later has no idea how to handle the issue. His two personas are kept separate for the most part – he freaks out when Arthur steals Zero's mask and displays none of his level-headed genius when chasing after it. Lelouch clearly wants to keep his friends out of Zero's business. When it's Euphemia's turn to learn about him, he reacts more gracefully, assuring her that he is still the Lelouch she used to know. Later, when the Geass is unintentionally triggered, turning Euphemia's peaceful solution into a massacre of all the Japanese, he recovers from his panic and switches to Plan B. The fact is, he had already planned to make use of her from the start. But he still cries while giving the command to kill her, and delivers the shot in person. Afterwards he grieves for the way things turned out. And if not for the accident, he would have accepted her idealism.
This dedication to his goal is his strength, allowing him to do all the things necessary to achieve power. However, it is also his weakness, making him abandon all his plans and common sense in order to save Nunnally when threatened, because it's for her sake that he does everything. He panics in these instances because along with his hatred and desire for vengeance, he's also a seventeen year old boy looking out for his sister.
He has one selfish wish from the past and one unselfish wish for the future. As he gains power over others, he loses control over the Geass. He has his public identity and his secret one. He questions himself, but ultimately he is decisive. He knows what he wants, and how to get it. He lies to everyone but himself. ...Actually, between the two main characters, Lelouch may be the simpler, straight-forward one.
THE WHITE KNIGHT
At a glance, Suzaku is what your typical hero should be, which is everything Lelouch isn't: honest to the world, virtuous, compassionate. It's Suzaku who will go to the extreme to save an innocent life and he absolutely cannot stand for injustice. He's there to save the day, to promote peace and non-violence, to be the knight in shining armor.
Suzaku is a mess of contradictions and hypocrisies right from the start – and fans will rag on him about it, but miss the brilliance of his character. He first captures Lelouch under the impression that he's a resistance member, a rule-breaker, someone who's out of line and will cause trouble and needs to be stopped. But then he finds out it's Lelouch, and that changes everything. When a superior officer gives him an order, Suzaku can't go through with it. Granted, the order is to kill his childhood friend, but it's still the first example of his absolute faith in Lelouch. After seven years of no contact, he doesn't even consider the possibility of his friend doing anything wrong (in addition to having this incredibly doofy expression of warm fuzzy love).
Suzaku is impulsive to the extreme. If Lelouch is all about planning and manipulation, Suzaku is all about reaction and passion. Whenever a problem arises, he throws himself into the middle of it, and all the better if it’s dangerous. He has a hero complex, a need to do the right thing and take responsibility. We can tell from flashbacks that he really was a kind-hearted kid, but now he relies on an exterior of compassion to hide a much less noble nature. "At first, I thought he was a truly kind person. But don't you think his reactions towards human lives is a little abnormal?" remarks Cecile in episode 14.
His self-sacrificing is a pretense, to mask and make up for the sin of killing his father. He excuses it when given the chance. His guilt is so tremendous that he is passively suicidal, putting himself in situations where he might die for a good cause. Suzaku lies to himself; on the outside, he's open and friendly and honest, but inside he's nothing but instinct. He doesn't question himself, he just goes through the motions. Suzaku can't acknowledge what he wants because his wish is such a selfish thing, it's better to coat it with illusions of righteousness.
But then Euphemia dies, and Suzaku's idealism shatters to pieces. He finally starts to accept his ill-intentions, not entirely, but he's beginning to be honest with himself. Up until the end, Suzaku has had blind faith in his friend even though he has identified the similarities between Lelouch and Zero. He'll fight for vengeance now. He acknowledges that it's his fault for allowing Lelouch to live, that it was a mistake and he's going to fix it by killing him.
So much for the pure, noble knight.
"we are friends, right?"
"we've always been, ever since seven years ago."
During their brief time together as children, the two formed an extremely strong bond, so that even after seven years they have the utmost faith in each other. Lelouch and Suzaku clashed in the beginning (to say the least), and it wasn't until one day when Nunnally got lost that they came together. This is how they start:
Suzaku: Kururugi Suzaku is a son of Japan! I'll help the ones I want to help, and do the things I want to do! Why should I need a reason to do any of those!?
Lelouch: (annoyed) He's turned on me instead?
Suzaku: I'll look for her because I want to. Stop me, if you can!
Lelouch: Wait, I'll be the one protecting Nunnally! I won't rely on the help of others -- not that of adults, and not that of the Japanese! No one else--
Suzaku: Shut up!
Suzaku: Don't decide on your own, dumbass! If you think you can do everything by yourself then you're a real stuck up snot!
Yeah, not quite on the same page, these two. Suzaku finds Nunnally first, and Lelouch comes upon them when he hears his sister laughing for the first time since their mother's death. They're in Suzaku's 'secret base', and Nunnally has been telling Suzaku all about their family and what happened to Marianne. All of a sudden, Suzaku has nothing but respect for this other kid who tries so hard to handle problems that no mere child should have, and listening to this literally brings him to tears. He forcefully yanks Lelouch into the secret base, and into a friendship.
Lelouch: We huddled together, hesitantly. That was the beginning... of our summer days... For me, and Nunnally... and perhaps Suzaku as well... those were dazzlingly blissful moments.
They sure were cute. Fast forward seven years later.
Lelouch desperately wants Suzaku on his side, adding his friend into his future designs as Nunnally's knight. He expresses resentment (episode 9, "That guy said that he needs to return to the army. Return... Is that where you belong?") or even hurt whenever others appear to steal Suzaku away, be it the Britannian military or Euphemia. This possessiveness towards Suzaku is not quite a desire to dominate though. He trusts no one else to protect Nunnally and even himself when he uses the Geass to outsmart Mao. C.C. asks why he won't simply use the Geass to coerce Suzaku, is it because of stubbornness, friendship, or pride? Lelouch gets this conflicted look on his face and answers, "Everything." Normally he is very specific when it comes to reasons, but the single response he gives is eloquent enough. The most telling scene is when he is forced to do it, and he has no time or thought to spare to say anything except "live". Afterwards, he's even repentant. "Suzaku, I'm sorry. You were the only one I didn't intend to use it on." This demonstrates a weird sort of loyalty when Lelouch has no trouble manipulating him in other ways.
As for Suzaku, his dedication to Lelouch comes in two forms, through action and non-action. The action part is the more obvious, but also the more shallow. He is constantly helping/saving his friend, starting with helping him up the cliff when they were children in the very first episode. When the container of 'poison gas' opens, he shoves his gas mask onto Lelouch and then gets himself shot while defending him. During the cat chase, he once again doesn't hesitate to save Lelouch's life at the risk of his own. And he comes in the nick of time to rescue him from Mao. Throughout the majority of the series, Suzaku is all about self-sacrifice and giving himself up for what he perceives as the greater good. In this, Lelouch is no different from anyone else who Suzaku would give his life to save, except that Lelouch is partly responsible for starting the whole thing. Suzaku admired Lelouch for taking action to protect Nunnally, when previously he had the opinion that children like them were powerless. "This is a matter between countries, between adults. It's not as if we kids can do anything about it." But then he does take matters into his own hands to kill his father and stop the war, though he regrets it deeply afterwards.
But Suzaku's complete and utter trust in Lelouch is demonstrated through non-action. From the start, he refuses to think any ill of his friend. At the end it is revealed that Suzaku has known, or at least suspected, Lelouch for a while. Only his faith in his best friend prevented him from seriously acknowledging it, but somewhere he made the connections. In fact, he comments on the similarity early on when Zero calls him an idiot for returning to face his trial. He questions Lelouch's familiarity with hacking into the school system. He asks Kallen if she knows who Zero is, when the man's identity has never mattered to him before, and this is after Zero pointedly brings up the Prime Minister's murder which Lelouch has just recently discovered. All this time, Suzaku never takes action. He explains to Kallen that he chooses to persuade her at school – perhaps he did the same with Lelouch. Suzaku wants to believe in the goodness of people because it's the only way he can redeem his own crime.
Interestingly, early on Suzaku's life is saved by his father's pocket watch when he is shot for disobeying orders for Lelouch's sake. Suzaku keeps it to remind himself of the consequences of killing his father, but at the end of the series he is faced with the consequences of trusting Lelouch. When Lloyd mentions a local belief about spirits protecting the owners of such keepsakes, Suzaku doesn't even listen and thinks only of his friend's safety.
The irony doesn't stop there. Lelouch, who has so much influence over Suzaku merely by being himself, is never able to sway him when speaking as Zero. He is never honest with him. Lelouch is calculating and secretive by nature, which no doubt keeps Suzaku at a distance, and Suzaku also has his own secrets now. Lelouch notices right away that his friend has changed; he thinks that Suzaku used to be much more selfish in the past during episode 6 as they chase Arthur. "He was different from how he used to be. He shouldn't be like this, placing others ahead of himself," Lelouch also admits in episode 17. This troubles and even angers him a little. There is something in Suzaku that Lelouch does not recognize, and that's not the way it should be. It was all right if it was just the two (three, including Nunnally) of them because they would protect and help each other, but when Lelouch sees Suzaku throwing himself at the mercy of others, he can't stand it. Intellectually, he later realizes it's because of Suzaku killing his father, but the result is still a barrier.
When they can acknowledge they want the same thing, the two work together beautifully. They're practically made for cooperation, with Lelouch providing the brain and Suzaku with all the brawn. When confronting Mao, Lelouch readily accepts Suzaku's help in order to save Nunnally – after all, he's always wanted Suzaku to protect her. And Suzaku once again gives everything for his friends. "There's nothing that can't be achieved if Lelouch and I work together, right?" (episode 16). When the patricide is revealed, Lelouch not only becomes enraged on Suzaku's behalf (issuing another command with no thought or calculation behind it), he also basically absolves him. It's true that Genbu's death did help put a stop to the war, and upon hearing that Suzaku visibly relaxes.
However, this does not deter Suzaku's inclination to die for a good cause. If anything, he's even more determined to make the world a better place by doing whatever he can, including holding Zero captive in order for both of them to die. Shortly after, he freely admits his sin to Kallen, and explains that ever since then he's decided to follow the rules no matter what. In episode 8 when his friends were being held as hostages, he tells Cecile that his duty to the military comes before his personal emotions – though when push comes to shove he disregards orders and leaps to into danger.
Though Lelouch's words put Suzaku at ease regarding his father's murder, as Zero he throws the incident in Suzaku's face. When they confront in episode 18, he tells him, "Do you understand? The will of the people was stolen. Selfishly! By that single culprit who broke the rule!" But try as he might, Lelouch is still unable to make Suzaku accept his selfishness. When given the choice to either side with Zero or go down in a blaze of glory, Suzaku naturally chooses the one that excuses himself from his crime. "What do you want?" Lelouch asks in a final, desperate attempt, but Suzaku outright refuses to acknowledge that he wants anything but to follow orders. Even with all the manipulations, Lelouch has wanted Suzaku to choose for himself.
Suzaku does eventually decide to act upon his desires again, when Euphemia is taken away. He comes to rely on her completely, because she more than anyone else can justify his decision. "I love you, so don't hate yourself," is mutual confession they make, and he is handed another reason to suppress his guilt. She represents idealism, proclaiming her hope from high up in the air with Suzaku up there with her, while Lelouch is crouched low to the ground realizing how impossible her wish is and how far it stands from reality. When Euphemia's idealism fails, so does Suzaku. "Save her," he says, because she's the only one who can save him.
Suzaku leaves his father's watch with Euphemia, casting off the guilt and the unreachable dream, and he has one last conversation with his best friend. He explains his feelings, unnaturally calm but with chilling anger. "If I don't follow the rules during a fight, I'll just be a murderer. However, hatred consumes me right now. I am going into battle to kill someone. That is why..." He almost sounds hesitant, reasoning it out like this, and Lelouch passes up the chance to try and dissuade him. "For Euphie's sake" and "For Nunnally's sake" – Lelouch has always been honest with his reasons, and the ending of episode 23 takes us back to episode 1 as far as his resolution goes. He's not just ready and willing, he's welcoming Suzaku as an enemy, now that they're both selfishly determined. Though whether he can actually bring himself to let go of a seven year friendship remains in question.
raise your fingers for one last salute
and bleed this skyline dry
your history is mine
- history (funeral for a friend)
Suzaku is not as shocked as we expect him to be when he shoots Zero's mask apart. There's some surprise, but mostly there's sadness and resignation. He admits that he's suspected, but never really believed it. Lelouch is composed and accepting, and also completely unrepentant. Yet somehow, he thinks to ask for Suzaku's help to save Nunnally. "There's nothing we can't do together!" The same words Suzaku said when they went to her rescue before. Nunnally is truly Lelouch's blind spot, causing him to assume that Suzaku would put aside everything for her sake, because Lelouch does just that whenever a problem arises.
But Suzaku refuses him. More than that, he's absolutely disgusted with him. He brings up Euphemia and Lelouch tells him that's all in the past, to Suzaku's shock and outrage. Lelouch is always dismissing such things – here again was a chance to say it was a mistake, to at least clear that much between them, but like always he lets it go. What's done is done. It's hypocritical of him to say this, when he himself has made the past his reason for everything. But Lelouch despises making excuses for himself, whereas Suzaku has lived with excuses for years. "Didn't you kill your father? You can regret as much as you want afterwards!"
Lelouch has always seemed a little bit betrayed by Suzaku, a little bit annoyed that Suzaku puts anybody and everybody before himself, that they're no longer quite the team they used to be. Lelouch saves his life and expects Suzaku to help him in return, or to at least share the same sentiment. They made a deal when they were children. If Suzaku won't use his power for himself, then Lelouch will use his power for Suzaku. It comes as a shock, and even a bit of an insult, when Suzaku consistently refuses and drifts further out of reach. He still wants his friend on his side badly. You could say that he needs him.
Suzaku sees his own selfishness mirrored in Lelouch, hates it, and needs to put an end to it. He has come to rely on the affirmation that he'd a good person, that everyone can be good, and puts that faith in Lelouch. Killing Euphemia is only the physical aspect of the betrayal, because the essence is that Lelouch shattered his trust and to an extent, destroyed everything Suzaku had built himself to be.
Without any excuses, Suzaku is emotionally driven. He's succumbs to fury and violence without a thought. He beats up Lelouch when they meet, kills his father, he goes berserk with Lancelot when recalling the incident, he punches Lloyd, he kills mercilessly when seeking Zero on the battlefield, and he means to kill his best friend for betraying him. He lashes out with intent to hurt and in a particularly vicious moment, denies Lelouch's very existence. "Your existence is a mistake!" Suzaku, who has always been saving Lelouch and defending him, will take responsibility and he will rescue Nunnally. If the past is to be forgotten, Lelouch should be forgotten along with it. And that's more shocking and hurtful than anything else. Only then does he unthinkingly aim his gun, both of them caught up in their emotions and betrayal and unyielding sense of 'I'm right'.
the clear sky, an ominous red
the sun, melting its way down
the last smile you left with me
is so transparent, it's distorted
- sky of suzaku (rurutia)
Well, that's all nice and good, but where does the BFF thing turn into a lovey-dovey romance thing?
The answer: it doesn't.
Lelouch could probably charm the pants of most people if he put his mind to it, and the entire knight/princess concept Suzaku has with Euphemia is romantic, but the two boys together? Even if there wasn't so much conflict between them, they just don't have the kind of relationship that invites conventional romance. But that doesn't mean they don't love each other.
And I think my reasoning above can prove that they do indeed love each other very much, even if it's now warring with hatred. It's in their actions and expressions during unguarded moments; the way Suzaku looks so stupidly happy when he sees Lelouch for the first time in seven years, and the way Lelouch cannot describe his reluctance to use the Geass on Suzaku except with a single, all-encompassing word. It's the complete trust they have have in each other. It's why the betrayal runs so deep. Like in any terrible argument, they both let fly words meant to cut. With Lelouch there's blatant shock and he does not freeze up and question like he usually does, he responds impulsively in kind and pulls his own gun. Fighting with someone you love is incomparably worse than fighting with a stranger. It's easier to be rash when you feel hurt. Lelouch and Suzaku are both extremely proud, on top of that.
The difficult thing to admit about this pairing is that there will be no easy happy ending. The basic premise - best friends turned enemies - is not uncommon. But there's something about Lelouch and Suzaku that feels more vicious than usual. In many cases, the friends don't actually want to fight, or there's some misunderstanding, or Good Wins, The End. But with these two, they have passed the point of no return, they are unforgiving, and neither of them are strictly wrong or right. Even if both of them manage to survive the series (questionable), and even if they no longer want to kill each other on sight (given enough time and favorable circumstances, quite likely), things aren't ever going to be the same between them.
I didn't like the pairing in the beginning. There is online evidence of me denying the possibility and saying that if anything, Lelouch was asexual... Then he went and kissed Shirley, so I had to grudgingly revise my opinion. I don't think there was an exact moment when I changed my mind about Suzaku/Lelouch in particular, but it probably started when the patricide was spelled out for us (because I am dense, and did not realize it earlier when C.C. triggered the flashback). I realized, "Oh my god, he's insane. He's just as crazy as Lelouch, but he hides it better. He practically hides it from himself."
Suzaku won me over to everything. I love Suzaku. This manifesto very nearly became a Why Suzaku is Awesome essay. He still sort of dominates it, despite my efforts to even things out. I have a 'what you see is what you get' approach to Lelouch, but with Suzaku I love to dig up every single little thing, particularly if it involves smearing the 'pure white knight' concept. He is passionate and violent and untamable when furious.
Suzaku is named for the vermilion bird of the south, represented by the phoenix. Its common attributes include loyalty, honesty, justice, obedience, fidelity, and the union of yin and yang. Most of those are fairly obvious to connect with him. And the Western version of the phoenix most commonly represents rebirth through self-immolation. Suzaku recreates himself after his father's death to fit an ideal. When that image is destroyed, he changes once more. Now if we could get some dragon association with Lelouch*, I'd be more than pleased - the dragon and phoenix together are portrayed as either mortal enemies or blissful lovers according to Asian mythology. What better way to symbolize the relationship?
*CLAMP agrees with me. The dragon and the phoenix. Thanks to dorkodile for pointing this out!
Most of the time, Suzaku uses "boku" to refer to himself. It's polite and typical of how he acts around people, but when the murder of his father is revealed, and at the very end when all bets are off, he reverts to "ore". He also used "ore" as a child, so the "boku" came into use after the patricide – the reverse is true of Lelouch, who went from "boku" to "ore". They switch roles as well, Lelouch starting as a Britannian prince and becoming the leader for Japanese independence, and Suzaku starting as the son of the Japanese Prime Minister and becoming a knight of Britannia. They are meant to oppose and reflect each other. They understand one another perfectly, but at the same time they cannot see eye to eye.
So are they doomed? They don't necessarily have to be. It's clear at the end that Lelouch is still reaching out to Suzaku, as he has been doing the whole time. And as much as Suzaku would like to be the hero and destroy the villain, he knows it's not that simple. He's unraveled and conflicted – chances are, if he were to kill Lelouch right now he'd probably kill himself next. He may not even be able to bring himself to kill Lelouch at all.
Unfortunately, we won't find out for sure until the second season.
i fall like a fighter when you give me a shot
i'll live like a lover when you're all that i've got.
- my heart is a soldier (the juliana theory)
image is from a doujinshi, colored (badly) by me
Looking at some of the official series artwork, you'd never guess that Code Geass had such an intricate story. But despite all the fanservice, English fandom is horribly lacking in creativity. D: Fanfic in general is not written very often, and the Suzaku/Lelouch side of things is outright sad. Why no love? You have a good range of possibilities – from BFF fluff to angsty hatesex, and the difficult space in between. The Student Council is a wellspring of crack opportunities. J-fandom takes good advantage of all this, at least.
I went through a couple communities and FFN, and picked out a few that I think are well-written representations of the pairing - I am admittedly picky about such things, or I'd just have compiled a list of everything out there.
code_geass - The general fan community. It's wonderfully organized – check the tags for fan stuff (including doujinshi!)
suzalulu - The pairing community. Sadly, it's not all that active, but it does have fic and some discussion.
Untitled by 5cmprince
With bonus art! The story itself is short and sometimes awkwardly structured, but it evokes some vivid imagery and Lelouch's characterization is spot-on. When he thinks of Suzaku, there are feelings of friendship and betrayal. That's the best part of the pairing.
Hands & Fingers by deadums
Another brief piece with art, this time illustrating the story. I have a lot of respect for people who can do drabbles since that kind of writing eludes me (I'm too long-winded, as you can probably tell). This takes place during their childhood, like a series of related snapshots. The blood is a bit macabre – to me at least, because while I won't bat an eye at gore, things like torn fingernails give me the willies.
By The Light Divided by calamit0us
As far as I'm aware, this was the first speculative ending written for the pairing back when episode 23 left us hanging. And boy, what an ending. It's the details that pack the most punch, Suzaku's repetition of "I didn't want" and Lelouch not wanting to see Suzaku cry, and finally, Suzaku's act of mercy for his friend despite wanting his enemy to suffer.
The Emperor's Waltz
This happened to pop up after I agonized over the shortage of fic, so you can imagine how happy it made me. Doubly so for Shakespeare references, Lelouch being insane, and Suzaku being vicious. There are some grammar blips, but they don't keep you from appreciating the story.
Untitled by sunsitenthai
I made a point to pester my friends for fic since I knew there was a lack, and this was the first result. ♥ I am of course biased, but with good reason. I don't have much to say about it except for a string of yesyesyesyesyes, because it's gorgeous and hurts in just the right way.
Monuments of Deceit by sephyelysian
If the previous couple of stories were painful, then you should not read this if you are faint of heart. Actually, no, you should read it anyway. Everything I mentioned in my essay can be found here, but described so much better. And with sex. And brutally-violent!Suzaku. And Scottish folklore! Why are you not reading it yet?! Yes, you must join the community to read it.
Good Intentions –White– by lunacrescent
The only reason I'm including my own writing is because my sad little list needs it. I'm not sure how to recommend this because it doesn't have much going for it, except that it's not tragically angsty and maybe after the previous few stories that's a good thing?
J-fandom is very reliable when it comes to fanart, also sometimes scary. There's your fluff, there's your angst, there's your crossdressing, and then there's your
Here are the three songs I used with the headers throughout the essay. Actually, the third one doesn't suit the pairing at all except for a couple of Suzaku-ish lines, but you can have it anyway.
History // Funeral for a Friend
Sky of Suzaku // RURUTIA
My Heart is a Soldier // The Juliana Theory
holy shit it's over